Daryl. :D

back-ed from field camp,
it was tough but enjoyable.
sleeping with insect around was my first time,
jungle was huge, every route seems the same,
after 8 days and 2 weeks confinement i was still able to fine my way home.
headed down zouk, saw my cousin some old faces
had a game and slack and mahjong with the 3 siao kia till the dawn,
dinner and meet click(clique) in town, headed down butter
different kinda of experience, dancing with music i never heard before.
and now blogging here.
is more then a month i last saw you,
and going to be another month,
just like i went army and got 3 month of confinement of not see-ing y-o-u
the feeling is weird,
my dad,mum,cousin,even my grandmother is asking about you every weekend,
i just lied, and lied,
lying is a easy thing, but, i find it hard this time round
the impression you gave, i never want to spoilt it.
because it was prefect, it was good
the aching when i lied,
i just pull myself over,
you told me you will make it for my 090909
in the end, you went back your words
is okay, i know is no longer past, is now and phuture(future)
i was never first, so i do not expect much,
just like playing big small,
is 50-50
but i lost,
i know the rate is lower then 50,
i tried.
i thought i was able to see you this weekend,
you are the force driving me thought this field camp
i told myself,
after this i will able to catch a movie or have a dinner or what.
whenever i was shag tired i told myself this,
at least it was a white lie.
i doubt you will read this,
because, you have no time, and lazy to hit this link,
you have new friends now,
more work load,
and i felt you are further away from me.
i am just nothing after 3 years,
but you will be getting a degree after 3 years,
this gap is enough for me to jump down and get myself kill-ed
thats how deep
the night before i left for field camp,
the feeling suck
i never wanting to go
but i have no choice.
you said i am the friend you do not want to lose,
if i just did not start every text till now,
i think i am already out of your mind,
remember the poker card you wrote,
that is a pushing force,
i am just a weak shit.
the love i first gave haven change a bit till now

febian study hard. for this once. after your exam
we will rock the dance floor and make people call 911 daily
i will be in camp at least every friday night okay?
study hard for this once and don repeat.
i know the how it felt when a person falls,
i have been though
you pull-ed me
i will pull you up too.
you are worst then me
i know,
STAY STRONG BROTHER